At the Crossroad

Okay I keep thinking that at some point I will know what to do, where to go, how to start over. I really don't know why it should have to be this hard. So I have my pity party again. I can be alone here or alone there or alone some other place. This alone stuff just sucks. I don't know why people choose not to have someone in their life intentionally. I hope you know that I am not talking about family or friends. I am blessed with an incredible family that I love so much and good friends too. It's just that it has been almost two years now since my world stopped revolving and I can't seem to get it back on track. Maybe I am sad after watching "Grey's Anatomy" tonight and seeing Izzy there hooked up to the chemo machines. It was all too familiar and it made me miss him all over again.
I realize that I dont have to make any decisions any time soon and that is a good thing since I am a bit off balance again since mom died. Thank God I have my cats ;-)and I can put on quite a good front. I really should have been an actress.
I will try to be more upbeat next post. In the meantime, hold each other close and cherish each minute God gives you together.

Jason and Mandy Miller 4/4/09

The wedding was nothing short of perfect. Everything went well and the bride was beautiful and the groom was handsome, as was his son. The mother of the groom didn't look too shabby either I might add.
The Wedding Cake was delicious (I also enjoyed the food and the booze ;-) The band was outstanding and the only thing bad was that it was all over too fast. I really enjoyed the evening and so did my other kids that were there as you can see by the pictures. We did miss Ricky and Beth though. It was too bad they couldn't make it to share in the good time.
Life is good.